So much is in front of me, yet I still think so much about the past; the sunny days, the rainy ones, spending hours writing music, eventually recording all of it in my room while thunder and lightning continued through the night. I see images of past summers spent with my best friends, around my town or in the city, walking on familiar sidewalks underneath the fall trees slowly changing colors, moving closer to the fire holding a cup of hot chocolate (with marshmellows of course) surrounded by my family, writing run-on sentences that last forever...ahemmm. It's so weird being where I never thought I'd end up...all I feel right now is love, accomplishment, friendship and promise. My future seems so incredibly bright right now in so many different ways...I can't explain it, I just know it's true and it's coming and it's so hard waiting around for it.
Above all, like I mentioned, I feel so incredibly loved. And it's all because of the girl to the upper right of these words...I honestly don't know what else to say except that I am so incredibly blessed. Having her in my life is like having healthy, colorful flowers and vegetables growing in your spring garden...it's what gardens are for, to hold life and help it grow, and grow alongside it. At this point I'm beginning to realize my grammar in this post is absolutely horrendous. But it doesn't even matter. I'm so lost in my life right now, and in a good way. At times, it feels like I have no idea where I'm going. But I think what's making me so content is knowing what I have on my way. I am living everyday, getting the most of the fresh air (yes, Chicago is a very clean city and the air quality is actually quite satisfactory), the atmosphere of the art and the politics and music and everything else. I'm finding more and more "secret places" when I go running, spots that absolutely put nothing and everything into my mind at the same time; like I said before I can't really explain it all, but I feel so loved, so alive, and what seems so crazy is that it's all very real. This is no dream.
Above all, like I mentioned, I feel so incredibly loved. And it's all because of the girl to the upper right of these words...I honestly don't know what else to say except that I am so incredibly blessed. Having her in my life is like having healthy, colorful flowers and vegetables growing in your spring garden...it's what gardens are for, to hold life and help it grow, and grow alongside it. At this point I'm beginning to realize my grammar in this post is absolutely horrendous. But it doesn't even matter. I'm so lost in my life right now, and in a good way. At times, it feels like I have no idea where I'm going. But I think what's making me so content is knowing what I have on my way. I am living everyday, getting the most of the fresh air (yes, Chicago is a very clean city and the air quality is actually quite satisfactory), the atmosphere of the art and the politics and music and everything else. I'm finding more and more "secret places" when I go running, spots that absolutely put nothing and everything into my mind at the same time; like I said before I can't really explain it all, but I feel so loved, so alive, and what seems so crazy is that it's all very real. This is no dream.
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